Thursday, November 15, 2007
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Monday, November 5, 2007
Am feeling better now though. hahahah.
OMG! I love the way you smell. IT turn me up. hahahah. So much for being special.
Im breaking up with him cause Boy you're spoiling me. Goodbye BB.
Stuck in my toes and whereevr you go im always following but no more cause those aint gonna work. I've cried im coming prepared babey. There no more tears for me to shed for you.
?2:36 PM
Get dem haters out your circle.
Smile in your face but they wanna do is bring ya down, down.
See them try to mess to hurt you and work you. Anything to bring ya down, down. they keep evil thoughts in their hearts. What you don't know.
You can't let them knock your hustle. Not letting them know how much you struggle.
They turn green with envy when you're on top. And dem heart is full with strife.
Their by gonna try to take your life. Ya, know they talk about ya and they tell lies.
Don't be fooled you betta rcognize. They not there for you, they don't care for you. Trust me cuz I know it's true.
Ya know they smile in your face and make ya think they down.
Then They turn against you when you're not around. It's just jealousy and dishonesty. So, hold on to your sanity.
Don't they realize. Its so easy to see right ttrough there disguise. Makes me wonder why.
When the world is turning left Im going right I need someone to let me be. Just who Iam inside. Cause a girl like me, a lil different from all the rest And a girl like me Never gonna settle for a seond best.
could it be a boy like you would give me anything if I asked him to.
Posibility got me tripping thinking of wht could be betwen you and me.
Still I need to know should I keep this feeling Or lt it go I can't wait no more.
So nows the time to speak your mind. Mirror mirrror on the wall Catch me before I fall. I wish I may, I wish I might.
Find the ans here tonight.
I don't know who you think I am.
Now I ain't tripping, I ain't twisted Iain't demented, well just a lil' bit Im kicking ***, Im taking names, Im on flame, don't do these to me anymore. Im getting restless, Im getting tested.
I don't know who you think I am. But I really Don't give a **** right now. Im gonna puff and huff and blow my world up and Im already am. You were all my lovers and my best friends always putting you guys first and I always stand last in everyone of your heart.
I don't wanna drink all those anymore.
Nver thought I ould feel something so strong i wanna hold on to those moments before its gone.
Iwant your time and your full attention.
I wanna talk to you and not mention all the good love that you peeps gave me to me.
I think about it constantly.
No I won't apologize for feeling like like I do Its just simple fcts of life.
Im going crazy. When it comes to love im not trying to share You might think im greedy But I just don't care I need you im my world cause Im a selfish girl.
I undrstand that you got your crew but I've got something in mind for you make you lose all track of time.
Guranteed to blow your mind.
I don't care about what anybody got to say. Maybe they never had it quite this way.
let them talk let them criticize.
They all need to recognize. They might see Im a bit extereme
But what I feel cannot be concealed. there aint no other way.
Im a selfish girl or watever whn it omes to you. Every minute of the day.
You got me tripping I didn't know what I was missing. This is crazy. So amazing.
I din't meant to be demanding but I hope you're understanding. Im not playing or begging im just sayying.
IF its destiny just lt it be.
All the words spoken or heard. never thought theses could hurt me this bad huh.
You walked on my pride.
Seven sins of wantoness and everything thats good is gone Sell it for the glory from the peers sillcone priestless scrath the back and twists the knie to bone.
Kick the aginst ****** and scrape the shinns. I m the enemies in the enemy now.
Swallowed the pill and drank to the fill and these things I carry now in this bittersweet in this bittersweet,now.
And now blame it all on me if ti makes you feel better or that if it makes things or all of our friendship better.
and being someone and part of my life as my Best Friends, do not talk behind my back cause it ain't gonna work for me cause it will hurt me mor and the more hatred and upsetness is in me.
Don't bring me down just because I keep quiet all the time and do not try to change my life first try being there and relise my positives and how I would feel when my Best Friends talk like this even after many years of friends.
Try being im my shoes.
When im feeling like this, no one had said don not be upset monica but instead ganged up on me.
Why does always to be me that had to be always goody goody.
Im already bleeding inside and all my best friends had to do was to even hurt me more.
Well since apologising won't help then forget abt it.
I won't apologise anymore and then do not blame for being like that.
Well this is my first time having all these probs.
I just hop this nightmare would end soon and that everyone would not be so sensitiv and that includes me too.
And that everyone would be fair and more nicer inside. Hope evrything is better soon.
I just wanna be free and only rmb the happy times with you C.
And spend more happy times than on the unhappy memories yeah.
I hope everything will be wind up and forget and start anew. yeah.
?2:08 PM
Sunday, November 4, 2007
I do not know, I do not know and do not like the way I feel inside, its always so wrong, well whatever.
?10:19 PM