Sunday, May 17, 2009

Did I lose weight?? hahha, I lost 3kg but my body like no diff eh, heh :(

oka peeps! today post is a long one oka, so take your time to read, :D

did I lose weight? hm*

MISSES NOW can't wait to see them all, I'm rich cause they're all my friends, I'm a rich girl :D

JNO9O1F

Im at the back beside mdm masni :)

BEST FRIENDS far from me yet near,

im the girl in blue :)

CLIQUE:D BL-S

Im at the front row 4th beside Debra, from the left :)

Clique :D BL-s

im the girl in blueeee :D

Dear and me :D i miss you dear, i know i've been not a good girl, heh, i don't know if you understand what im saying hahah, but im sure you'll understand this, Iloveyou, thanks for bringing lunch box/breakfast for me during sch recess, I love you and i really appreciates it love you!

LURB and me! hmm, i know we've drifted cause of me, Im such a bad friend, but I don't want us to drift to that extend yeah over small stuff, I love you too :)

Garett and me :D hmm, I know myself I loved you the most and been too overly nice to you if im not wrong, I know you got lots of probs, I wanna be there with you but I seems like just talking but no actions but I really wanna be there with you, for you, understands you,someone you can cry to, smile with, but Im really a lousy very lousy friend, heh, If you didn't know, i wanna say I love you lots too :D

Hmm, know what? I just realise all the pics up there im wearing blue, hahhah, wth, oka la, I know I sounded super dramatic up there with all the mushy words, cause today stayed home so was very free and happened to miss those ppl up there, got more ppl but erm, my lappy will lag if i upload everything hahah, anyways, words cant explain my love, my feelings the way I feel now, and Im the type of person will only give in to the person i think worth it like my friends friends i treasure and if you're not the one I treasure too bad haha, so if you know who im talking abt, yeah, and pls la, dont try to be someone you're not la gosh its making me puke heh, Its freaking me and grossed me out, heheh

Things I wanna do most now!

Go to sentosa play volley ball
Go east coast learn cycling/rollerblading
Go swimming thanks to Faridah my swimming skills better haha :D
Go K-Box! Randoms, haha
Go ice-skating :D
Go to the Zoo soon yeah?!?!
And stop all sinful kinda stuff eg-clubbing,drinking,flirting.etc and I today told Love i'll stop ahem* _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Today, i made a bet with LOVE, to lose weight to 50kgs, hahah i know its still heavy but slowly cause im now like ermsss heheh, 57kg?!!?!! gosh! heavy la, don't laugh at me oka! RARR! so a bet with him was to lose weight within 1 month to 50kg! haaha, then he'll have to build up his abs la ceps la wtv la, hahah, so within 1 month! then we compare! hahha, and the looser have to do something, hahahah, and LOVE! save up money cause im gonna make you buy the moon and stars for me and Im gonna win!!!! Muahahahahhaha

Hmm, Im not being fussy over relationships, I just don't wanna be with the wrong person, and to me first impressions counts then the feeling counts so Im not being fussy, am I? Im not la yeah, Hmm, maybe I should stay single? Should I? Since it all turns out wrong, hmpf* So shall I just stay single? hmmm, current thing I wanna do is to leave everything behind and be with my mommy :(

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

Pictures from ytd's outing, :D150509

blur ones somemore heheh

Ytd, went back to sch to pass back the donation card and went out to slack with these two ahem* heheh they accompanied me until 5-6pm b4 I go meet JinLiang & co, then met JinLiang&co had fun made new friends I supposed, heheh, but it was fun, though i was tired,

TODAY!

the pic uh, took when i just woke up, see how tired I looked! heheh

Today supposingly to meet JinLiang at Jurongeastfor some function but felt tired and headache so didn't turn up, so I stayed home whole day, sleep wake up, sleep wake up, though last night I talked to someone till going 3am, hahaha Im going to the zoo with him, Im excited! then just hmm, monday attachment starts again -_- so the zoo outing with him gonna be delayed right my outdated uncle? hahah, I cant wait to see you and see the animals in the zoo! hahhahaha, I wanna straighten my hair, should i? hmm, probably when the next holiday la, heh

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Friday, May 15, 2009

work it!
Today got lost in sch for bio lesson hahah, then met Jin liang at tamp again, then ate dinner then walked around then she sent me home hahhhaha, sweet right! haha, tmr going sch again -_- heh,

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

CANDY KISSES

Today went sch for bio lesson, met friend-s at simei mrt cause my friend fetch me to sch! hahha, :D thank you! then walked to sch, the weather was like effing hot! though i don't mind it hot cause i can sweat fats off but it was at the right moment, heh, what am i talking abt-_- was suppossed to meet pris lim after sch but didn't so went to tamp mall 1 to have dinner and walked around with friends, then went to find someone on the way back home then came home early cause tmr need to wake up early. Oh well, tmr im meeting Jin Liang, YAAY! hahah, but after my bio lesson again she said she'll come fetch me! hahah, Im hourned! heh, Im seriously gaining back the weight I lost last few days, Gosh! why am i so lazy, if only i can get rid of this laziness in me, im sure I'll feel a lot better inside out, NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!! :( anyway, attachment starting soon again i guess, so it should be not so boring and I hope it'll be still as fun yeap! NIGHTS PPL! loves, (:

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I feel so untouched,

Been going back to sch for extra lessons, -_- got a new bag! hahhaha, hmm, why does everything seems so good in the beggining and why does the worst have to always come, why cant it be all nice till the end, and why does it even have to end why do I feel like its all just for a while, why cant it all last all sweet memories why?!?!?! I try to make things stay sweet but why do I try so much when its nth to do with me, why do I try to make everyone happy turning it all the other way round, why do I lose out in the end, why didn't I gain something, I guess I was just lousy,

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Monday, May 11, 2009

Dad and mom

JN0901F

Oka, finally made the effort to blog again, cause I was too lazy and busy these few days and lappy kept hanging, so anyway, changed blog song but its turning weird, heh, didn't actually went for shisha on sat cause friends didn't reply my friend's text so went expo with Jin liang & co instead glad met up with them,(: they were nice ppl I know that will be there for me love me for who I am understands me, will not climb over my head, and I know I can share everything with them,

Thank you god for all my friends, my aunts and uncles whom been there for me through big times, thank you dad for still loving me though im naughty, mom I hope you're happy with God and guiding and watching over me, Anyway, im gonna go back to work soon as Im having super annoyingly holiday at the wrong time, and its so waste and boring holiday,

I miss My class JN0901F and CP friends seriously, I feel lonely at times very lonely esp when Im home, everyone's asleep nth to talk abt cause idk where to start or whether they would understand, I miss mommy,daddy,friends,ex, miss having the feeling of being loved,taken care of concerned where I am, I think im dying in sins cause i know I've done a lot of unhealthy things, I wanna stop but I cant and God im asking you to guide me through making me stronger not weaker, guide me and help me cause i wanna stop I wanna live a healthy life with having healthy friends around that won't make me weaker or hate myself more for what I have but love my self more what I have now, I think Im very blessed, very in some sense I am,

lastly I hope you are happy, loved, satisfied, healthy and everything good, whoever you are reading this, (: cause im sure there things that you can smile and ppl whom love you, oka, why do i sound like im telling all these to myself, heh, anyway, just be happy for whatever you have, be happy that not everyone is satisfied with you so that you can improve, be satisfied with just everything, don't let others overcome you the way you feel, I knw I do, but i still smile and I know what and where i've wronged and acknowledge my mistakes, cause Im still a human, I make mistakes, learn and my biggest mistakes are being too weak in everything, sigh, I wanna become stronger, Im gonna be stronger,

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