BUST IT!got my phone back, so can call or text me if you wanna(: hmm, sat-180409 went to work at demsey hill angel's share, tiring and pissed off of some stuff like i was left behind, hmm, dont wanna talk abt it, anyway, it was just a moment i felt that way, cause after that i felt better talking to other ppl(: hmm, then, sunday190409 went to meet uncle at city hall and went off to aunt jaqcuiline's place to eat for dinner she got 5 dogs! heh, aunt susan fetched me and went to visit aunt lucila at her place cause she had operation, but instead they had to worry bat my life): i felt like i was a burden but they tried so hard not to make me feel that way so, then today morning went raffles to meet someone important, then offed to sch, met Jivinia and her bf sweet stuff she sends him to the hospital everyday((: sweet huh, heh,
I wanna be with someone I wanna be satisfy with if you get what i mean, I know im not perfect and im not that all that but I still wanna get what I want, so if you dont satisfy my needs, im sorry, but I dont have needs I just wanna be with someone Im satisfy, I'll shall not be choosy for the better heh, I don't think im making sense eh, heheh, anyway, nights!(: Im a good girl now:D
NOT GONNA GIVE UP EASILY!
Oka, been blogging nowdays eh, heh, im getting use to not using my phone))): Today, first actual day for me to start my attachment heh, been sent to all male ward, freak ou,t heh, if only all the males were cute I dont mind, hahhaha, -_- anyway, on the way to the ward ths afternoon, I saw Jivnia, and Bf eh ,hahhaha, oka, im getting jealous cause suddenly everyone is having serious relationship and left me, heh, oka, not everyone la, hahaha, I don't wanna waste time on ppl whom don't have that much space m my heart eh, so yeah, heh, my phone is dead, I wonder if Shane contacted me, but I wanna call him, ): if he was here he would be only one to spoil me, wassup with me, I feel yet Im losing ppl I love and yet I feel I've found more new ones, so is it good or bad ): heh,
Get Original!
Oh today woke up early for my school attachment and when I reached there my teacher asked me go home cause of my eyes being RED hahhah, so i went around and went to the doc for an MC heh, lameeee waste $$$ esp when Im broke heh, anyway, it wasn't much, and went to pay for my phone bill, slowlly, heh, and cause my bill wasn't settle the cancelled the line pathetic heh, and my the other card is dead hahhah, wassup with me, hahha, bankrupt and broke, heh, so yeah, sorry guys if you guys tried t ocontact me and I cant reply or get through heh, GUESS what hahah, today cause I was so broke, I told this guy, i'll date him for 1 week if he gets me what I want I felt so retarded saying that heh, cause it was all bullshits heh, tmr back to attachments ): till 9pm):
P.S- Nth is gonna go into my ears if you're not my concerns,(: cheers(:
IM A BEAST WHEN YOU TURN ME ON
Im currently in love with the song BOOM BOOM POW - blackeyedpeas(:
Yaaaaaaaayyyy, IM free finally, hahahha, like finally, hahhaha, free from my worst night mare!, yaaaaaaaaaay, My dear friend, I hope you'll be fine too alrights? It all in just matter of time,
Free now, ahhahhaha, im on the next level, stronger, ready for anything, cause Im glad that Im still here (: and attachments should be alright, hahha, just give it all my best as long as I know what Im doing, heheh, yupp, it cant bring me down huh besides my tiredness I should be alright, super sonic :D so bring it on, heh, Im so happy now((((: LISTEN UP YO"S - hhaha, Im gonna work at demsley hill one of the pub on every sat, oh yeah, hahahah but i've not started yet heheh, new friends(: and new stuff to learn, yes yes yes, I like that, uh huh, hahahha, Im not gonna give a damn to ppl who turns me off, cause I dont need them, hahhaha, just gonna keep on be my self and do what I wanna do and not gonna be MISS NICE anymore to the extend listening to ppl's shits and giving in so many anymore, so if you dont like it fine with it, so its all gonna be a new me(: like it or not
I hate
- whom tryna act like someone they're not
- ppl whom critcise other ppl when they themselve are like not even up to the standard
- whom spoil the fun
- whom are immature
- whom think they're so smart
- whom act like they know it all -__-
- whom hurt my friends/criticise my friends if they're like wtf (:
- whom are self centred
The end world peace ppls!:D
Im scared, I hates mondays its always a bad day for me, I just hope mon would never comes, but yet, i want the prob to be over soon, sigh, Im regretting now, why now I ask myself, I know I deserve it all but i don't want the ppl whom love me spent all the effort on me to be wasted, God, I promise, I promise if everything tmr goes well, I promise I'll do anything to change and be a good girl, I'll be a good girl, I'll change my self for the better, I promise, I don't want everything to end here, Now I cant sleep, my legs are weak, I've got nth in my mind but whats gonna happen tmr, sigh, God guide me, save me, I promise, I'll stop and not sin anymore, I don't want to take what I have for granted anymore, my freedom and everything, I just wanna study hard, forgive me, I dont wanna go to that place again, pls, sigh, Im very scared, Idk who to talk abt this prob, but after mon, if you dont see me blog again, then Im saying goodbye to everyone, But I hope there wont be goodbyes, but I hopes, I wish, I'll do anything to live a normal life, I just need another chance to show that I can change better,
Im scared im so scared I’ll lose everything over one night, I don’t want the time to come so fast, I don’t want that day to come,suddenly I want things to go slow, everything, I don’t wanna lose everything just like this, and if you know what im talking abt, I swear im scared but I know its all to late now, why was I so stubborn and so dumb that time, and I wanna to turn it all around, idk, Im so scared, I just want someone to be here for me cause im so scared I just want this ensure feeling with a hug a shoulder to cry on sweet nothings but I know it won’t change what I’ve done sigh, Im really scared to go on, sigh, feeling like a fool that time, sigh, it started and I just want it to end which it shouldn’t have even started, why was I so stupid, why am I so stupid! Why am I stupid everytime letting everything ruin me knowing right and wrong, damn I hate myself for everything I did, if it all ends here and worst to worst comes, I really don’t understand whats the point of me living, Now, I’ve only got God to turn to, I’ve realise god is helping some how, but I really don’t want the worst to come, I wanna be living normally not thinking too much, damn, save me God, I know I’ve took everything for granted, it all just a playful part of me, save me, protect me, guide me, be there for me when I fall
Im sorry,
hmm, when i woke up this morning go this call and it screwed my mood couldn't sleep anymore when esp it all sound like oka, damn, i hope nothin' would go wrong, sigh, i dont wanna shatter all my dreams and the ppl whom's hopes are on me, im dying, feeling restless though i look alright outside): im not, i cant stand it, the feeling is killing me, anyway, Im happy enough for my life after that day's bus stop incident, i realised im lucky to have so many nice ppl around me, my family, aunts,friends,mentors,everyone, and God pls forgive me, im sorry, pls dont make me lose everything just like this pls, neither do i want to lose anything in the end, Im sorry,
I want
- someone whom can prove me love is sweet
- someone whom can make me forget the things that makes me unhappy,
- someone whom will try to be there for me
- someone whom understands me
- someone whom knows me for who i am-
Nothin' crying for Nothin' mad at for, Baby can we make up now, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you,- someone whom makes me laugh
- someone whom love me for whom I am
- someone to love me more than i do
- to quit all bad stuff
- to lose weight^^
- to spend times with someone i love
- to be cheerful
- to be positive
- to study hard
- to escape all problems
- to stop thinking too much
- all bad ppl to leave me alone
- all troubles to go away
- wanna stop missing ppl!!!
- money,clothes,accessories,shoes,diamonds,house, car,
- to sleep late everyday
- to be more myself
- learn to appreciate what i have now
- to party!
- to drink!
- eat all my fav food everyday and not grow fat
- change the world
CUPPACCINO!!!!!!! <3
off to marina square for shopping!:D
Me & Garett:D
Aww, erm, "she" Garett is Hot to me she is oh welll i know im not but erm no comments heheh
Garett and i know she look like she did not wore anything huh, but she did its the pole covering hahha, imagine the ahem" the size so small can be covered by a pole, hahha jknz:D
It rained on our way to the toilet thats why we looked heh,
