Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Today did nothing actually. Stayed home and rot. Idk why but it seems i no longer exist in my friends anymore. School gonna open, idk if i should be excited or what cause all those sucking up here and there starting. Idk if im right or isit just simply jealously but some suck up then very irritating, venting anger on one another and others stuff and yeah, im only hoping things would get better, prudence dear dont be angry anymore alright. cheer up and forget about the bad side alright, its all wrong, and we all know. Anyway, i dont even know if you're gonna read this neither the others. i dont think they even remember me anymore. i hate myself for everything, for not having a better relationship with my loved ones. i dk idk how to explain it all. i miss almost everyone but i doubt they do anyway. do you guys still love/care abt me anymore? idk if anyone of you are counted as my friends or count me as one. i dont even know if im still in you guy's eyes. hmm actually i dont think you guys will understand anyway. and i dont even know where i stand or im just someone else. idk i feel very lonely in this world. everyone got someone but i dont seem to have anyone. idk what else to do anyway.
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