Hmmm, nafa test is here, Eugine boy did really well and it feels that we get along quite well though. heh any ways, today was boring, came home early, ate dinner and watched television. then went out to do run to get myself prepared for nafa test. And lose some fats. OhYEAH. heh.
Today sucks to the f***ing core. Got scolded by my lecturer for sleeping in class, wth! And got these few guys freaked me out totally. Anyway today was just a total disgrace went to meet BB and BB's friends were there too and i look like shit cause my fringe was pinned up look like F***. And whats worse was that BB actually got to tell me that my fly was opened!!! EMBARRASSING!!!! DON"T LAUGH! I just had to tell it so that i would feel better. GOSH! Somemore In front of BB's friends and BB just to say it out loud so i just zipped it up in front of them and acted normal but i was F***ing embarassed. And wanted to meet Darren actually but he got angry cause i made him wait for nobody's buisness so he went back so i went back too and Shane called to ask me out but I did not want to meet cause reaching home and i look total horrible and just in case my fly open again my BB wont be there to tell me Nways,
CNY coming, having dinner on sunday peraps if I wanna go, WHATEVER LA hack care. wait till the day come nearer then decide. Tests ccoming and i dont understand what the lecturer was talking the whole F***ing time. BORING!!!
They think im crazy, stupid, silly but i think whatever if its for you i'll do anything. I just wish you were with me by my side most of the time but I know it'll all in just a matter of time. You owe this to me.
I miss my clique seriously I miss you guys, I miss being mischevious in class with you guys eating, sleeping all at the same time, the 10 of us. Listening to music and camwhoring. But now everything changing. I cant be so touchy anymore cause it just not you guys, hmmm, more holiday, less school days pls?????????
I hate you ( E contary)
School is fine. My classmates are fine they're funny and fun. But my school or my course is v v v strict very cant be late and its so far and cant be absend for more than 3 days and im gonna get a cca volleyball perhaps.. hmmm, I miss clique. I really do. How should i put it. I used to hate it last time cause we were too bickerish and everything so dont like it but im now missing them. oh pls but i hope everyone is doing fine. I miss Stc the times we share our food and bringing lunch boxes. And sigh I could take all night saying how much i miss them. I miss you all.
idk just wish everything would change. im lost Baby you've got me cause im lost now and cant find the previous me again. Baby you and me are just so not have enough time for each other. I just wish you were the one for me and be there for me but you only want me there for you when you need me. i really wanna give up on this relationship cause its making me break down. But yet i love you dearly. Perhaps i should just make this an end like what others are telling me to do. But i dont wanna let you go this selfish side of me wanna keep you and baby, im sorry if i made things difficult but i'll tell you i really love you so stop asking. You're doubting me not trusting me. Anyways i love you