Hmmm, Im so distracted nowadays getting scolded for sleeping in class and tmr my test again dont think I can pass it. Failed my bio test... Teacher talked to me personally asked me whats wrong, what was I supposed to say? Say that All I want now is just a good sleep without thinking before I fall asleep? If you got what I meant, I just wanna have a day of good sleep. To be more fresh to think over stuff properly, now cause of sch Im tired, you never wanna see me this way cause I feel that Im so tired that Im letting it effect the way I feel now,
anyway, I guess you'll be reading this from today onwards I've got nothing more to do with you perhaps just friends or maybe not, idk I feel insecure over your love for me and I just cant stop feeling the way I feel now, I want the old me back serously. Sigh, You've really dissapointed me this time, you've changed like really i guess Im the cause of it cause I cant bring you clser to me so we've just drifted, I feel so, why are things turning out this way? Is it because Im not trying hard enough or is it the way I feel over you? I swear I hate this feeling abt you I feel that your feelings for me faded during those days and now everything so diff they're getting worse, I dont know how to explain but I just feel that you don't really bothers anyway, and that you're keeping for tha sake of it and you dont prove to me that you do bother or adores me, but anyway, our relationship is over, Its just all my fault Im sorry, and if I were to say I dont love you I would be lying my ass off. And you kept saying Im the one thats changing when I said it was you. Why do I feel that you're still keeping things from me? Why cant our relationship have no probs, Sigh Idk why am I so emo I guess its my menstrual cylce thats causing it, Anyway, since I feel Im the lousy one, I'll back off.
I want to sleep!
I want you to tell me whats going on with you?
I want to know whether what Im doing now is right or wrong?
I want to go back to the old me.
I want to concentrate on my studies.
I wanted you to be there.
I wanted to be there for you when you need so,
I wanted eveything to end just I could chill though I sound selfish
I want to skip achool and be with you.
I want everything cleared.
I want to drink badly now
I want happy days hurry come.
I want school holidays to come FAST!!!
I want to forget you.
I want to be high no matter what.
I want to be happy!
I want to be positive.