Today did nth particular went out late as usual, im sorry, but i still turn up. hahah cause im a good friend aint I? haha, Erm hoping to meet BB today but nope I did not cause BB too busy like super duper busy huh, heh, like who cares yes I do but Im telling myself not to cause I DON'T WANT PPL I LOVE TO UPSET ME! Busy always busy. I DON'T CARE I DON'T! Hope my attachement start real soon, and I'll be too busy to think of you and then we'll see who the real busy one and make you FEEL THE SAME WAY I FEEL NOW but Idk if we'll last till then. OH OH i don't care, they said if you relly love me you'd do anything but i don't see you doing anything, oh yes you told me you need time, Im giving you all the time you said you need and by then if there no changes, I think i've wasted my fcuking time ehs. I think im already wasting my fcuking time now. Anyways, I don't care I don't fcuking care anymore if you bother or really adores me not cause I give up!And like what ppl whom knows you best your long friends think so that you'd do anything for the one you love, but I feel diff and when they asked me if whether you're what they said, I turned speeceless,ANYWAY, NO COMMENTS! I'll be fcuking nice again, im always is and so dont take advantage of it, and its not that I dont know what to say, I just dont wanna hurt feelings but if you want me to be the ugly side, Im on. And tmr Im gonna change myself in my attitude. Tmr will be the new me, but hopefully nothing makes me weak again. Cause I dont want to be weak! Cause I've got nobody to stand up for me, anyway, i gotta be independent. wait, I am. heh, Whatever la, idk what the fcuk am I feeling the way i feel now, I want the Emo Monica to go away,