Im scared im so scared I’ll lose everything over one night, I don’t want the time to come so fast, I don’t want that day to come,suddenly I want things to go slow, everything, I don’t wanna lose everything just like this, and if you know what im talking abt, I swear im scared but I know its all to late now, why was I so stubborn and so dumb that time, and I wanna to turn it all around, idk, Im so scared, I just want someone to be here for me cause im so scared I just want this ensure feeling with a hug a shoulder to cry on sweet nothings but I know it won’t change what I’ve done sigh, Im really scared to go on, sigh, feeling like a fool that time, sigh, it started and I just want it to end which it shouldn’t have even started, why was I so stupid, why am I so stupid! Why am I stupid everytime letting everything ruin me knowing right and wrong, damn I hate myself for everything I did, if it all ends here and worst to worst comes, I really don’t understand whats the point of me living, Now, I’ve only got God to turn to, I’ve realise god is helping some how, but I really don’t want the worst to come, I wanna be living normally not thinking too much, damn, save me God, I know I’ve took everything for granted, it all just a playful part of me, save me, protect me, guide me, be there for me when I fall Im sorry,