Monday, May 11, 2009
Dad and mom
JN0901F
Oka, finally made the effort to blog again, cause I was too lazy and busy these few days and lappy kept hanging, so anyway, changed blog song but its turning weird, heh, didn't actually went for shisha on sat cause friends didn't reply my friend's text so went expo with Jin liang & co instead glad met up with them,(: they were nice ppl I know that will be there for me love me for who I am understands me, will not climb over my head, and I know I can share everything with them,Thank you god for all my friends, my aunts and uncles whom been there for me through big times, thank you dad for still loving me though im naughty, mom I hope you're happy with God and guiding and watching over me, Anyway, im gonna go back to work soon as Im having super annoyingly holiday at the wrong time, and its so waste and boring holiday,
I miss My class JN0901F and CP friends seriously, I feel lonely at times very lonely esp when Im home, everyone's asleep nth to talk abt cause idk where to start or whether they would understand, I miss mommy,daddy,friends,ex, miss having the feeling of being loved,taken care of concerned where I am, I think im dying in sins cause i know I've done a lot of unhealthy things, I wanna stop but I cant and God im asking you to guide me through making me stronger not weaker, guide me and help me cause i wanna stop I wanna live a healthy life with having healthy friends around that won't make me weaker or hate myself more for what I have but love my self more what I have now, I think Im very blessed, very in some sense I am,
lastly I hope you are happy, loved, satisfied, healthy and everything good, whoever you are reading this, (: cause im sure there things that you can smile and ppl whom love you, oka, why do i sound like im telling all these to myself, heh, anyway, just be happy for whatever you have, be happy that not everyone is satisfied with you so that you can improve, be satisfied with just everything, don't let others overcome you the way you feel, I knw I do, but i still smile and I know what and where i've wronged and acknowledge my mistakes, cause Im still a human, I make mistakes, learn and my biggest mistakes are being too weak in everything, sigh, I wanna become stronger, Im gonna be stronger,
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